This close 👌 to not post today but here I'm writing 🤷‍♀️

Hi!

Paola here 😇 I was this close 👌 to not post today but here I'm writing 🤷‍♀️. 

This has been a busy week so I have been re-planning and rethinking about my posting schedule for this blog and YouTube. It has been confusing because editing YouTube videos and blog post takes a while and I have been pressuring myself to post constantly in both platforms. 

When I planned my schedule at the beginning of this journey I thought I would just post fast stuff here and there in both platforms but during these months it has changed. I discovered that I love dedicating time to these projects so it wasn't going to be as easy as I thought.

After a while, my schedule started falling apart because I didn't have enough time to update both platforms so all this week I have been think what to do about it, I even thought in closing my YouTube channel but then I noticed that I really like making videos there, that wasn't the problem. I'm still not 100% confident but I think that I'll try to post in this blog at least once a week during weekdays and in my YouTube 🤔 ... I'm still not sure. 

I would love to not feel the pressure to do this, it's so weird that I intended to use these media following  my own rules and I created harsh rules for myself, with hours and hours of work (right now, it's 7:03 pm on a Friday and I'm writing this 🥺 unacceptable, it supposed to be my project = my rules, it looks like the one with the harsh rules was me).

Anyways, I just wanted to share this and put it out of my chest because if I was following a Blog and person stopped posting from one moment to another I would like to know what's in her mind.

It's so hard to let myself be free when I have all these fears about what could go wrong if I don't do this or that 😓. Let see how it goes during the weekend.

It's time to renew bows with myself.

Does this has happened to you? You start a project and you overwork yourself? 😡 (I didn't want to say it but it makes me feel so angry haha, maybe I don't say it but definitely it shows)

By the way my husband JUST told me that there is word for this 🙊

Overcommit: to commit more than is feasible, desirable, or necessary.

Love,

Paola